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Hey guys iapos;m new and i have never posted but iapos;ve been reading in the pro ana communities for a while.
one thing that has always confused me is how u guys always talk about binging and stuff.
i have had an ed since i was 7 years old and iapos;m 19 now. Though i have had my fair share of binging in the past
i like to think of it as my mia stage, but with ana i donapos;t binge....i have a hard time EVEN eating at all.
food scares me, and i guess i could see it as a blessing because all of you talk about being hungry and wanting to binge.
do any of you feel the way i do?
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